Pressure

20Mar10

I’ve been in full-blown panic mode for about two months now.  I have frequent stomach- and head-aches.  I can’t sleep well.  Thinking of leaving the house makes my head pound and my stomach turn.  I cry for no reason.  I act irritably towards almost everyone.  It feels like I have all but shut down completely…

I have been rejected from four of five doctorate programs.  I am in danger of losing my job.  My parents are being overly critical.  I am waiting on two masters programs and I’m starting to apply to jobs.  Just thinking about this nonsense makes my throat tighten up.

This growing up shit is hard.

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